.Wednesday, April 8, 2009 ' 10:55 PM Y
enter the lies with a hasty key
OH MY GOD!!.when's the last tym i've blogged??.lols.so0o0o0 sryyy!!!.i was busy with a lots a lots of things recently.okay okays.i've say things that i rmb,kays.. ((: here it goes..
21/3 - went for dental appointment.hahas!.change my braces colour.wooo!!.then slack ard tanjong pagar with my mummy.
22/3 - went to chinese club with my cousin n auntie to celebrate my 1st uncle-in-law's birthday.went to sing sia.super funny too.hahas!.everything end at ard 6pm.lols. XD
then all the way workin n workin.aft work go hm rest,watch tv.my life for that wk until...
28/3 - went out with huiying at nitex.hahas.went to cine n heeren.go find joan's present.in the end,i bought my shirt n someone's shirt at newurbanmale.lols!!.bt b4 that we went for dinner at hong kong cafe.hahas.then aft buyin went to heeren mac to do some sj stuffs.then went hm at ard..hmmm..11.30pm.hahas..then forgotten which day i went to watch movie with huiying.went to watch 'MALL COP',freakin funny larx!.hahas!.
2/4 to 4/4 - went to a fashion walk function at paragon.n the fashion walk is like..OMG!!!.the guys r all so0o0 TALL & GORGEOUS!!.the gals r all so0o0o TALL & PRETTY!!.hahas.i rmb this v clearly.the kids fashion walk for fox kids.hahas!.they r all so0o0 CUTE!!.c the way they walk n post,rly makes me go 'OMG!!.they r real CUTE!!.'hahas.on the same day 4/4,was nicloas 18th yrs old birthday too.hahas.aft the function,met xixian at paragon first.then we headed to cine to buy my care bear.hahas.then headed dwn to bugis to meet the others for steamboat.it was real fun.bt b4 that in the mornin of 4/4,i gt scald by hot oil on my hand.n stil gt the mark.the funny thing of me is,the oil burst out n kena my hand n i can stil stay calm n continue to do the order.lols.i dont even know what i'm thinkin at the time bein.aft i've done everything i look up n all my colleagues n manager starin at me.then i voice out the my hand kena the hot oil n i start to say its pain.then they give me the relieve face.lols.aiya.nvm larx.its over.then on nic's bdae that nitex suppose to ton.bt i cant tahan til 2am plus.i keep ywanin n eventually,i voice out to go hm.lols.took a cab hm.reached hm,bath,brush teeth,bath n everything finis at ard 3am.n there i go..on my bed.SLP!!!.until the next day 5/4.woke up at 2pm plus for breakfast cum lunch.bt b4 i woke up i had a dream.i dont know whether its a gd dream or nt.bt sometime i hate those kind of dream.seem so real.hais..then aft eatin i watched tv for awhile n i went to slp agn at 4pm plus n woke up at ard 7pm.super tired.then went to my auntie hse for dinner.yeahh..
6/4 - went to work in the mornin.i dont know y.when i'm workin i stil cn rmb the date of that date clearly.n i keep thinkin of that same old day 2yrs ago.i juz miss that day badly n my mood that day wasnt gd too.hais.went hm aft work,went to rent 'FINAL DESTINATION 1&2' cuz i watched part 3 on sun.n its like..GROSS&EXCITIN.its juz DELIRIOUS.stayed at hm all day long.n cried under the blanket for awhile.nt thing juz finis v fast.hais..its been 34 days ever since our last msg to each other.i dont dare to msg u.what cn i say or do.i hate dreamin of u.it seem to be so real.bt everythings juz vanish when i wake up.sometimes i hope i wil never wake up frm the dream.sometimes i hope i wont dream of u that nitex cuz aft dreamin of u makes me worry.i feel like cryin bt even if i do cry.what cn i do too?.nth n juz nth isnt it.hais.that day,i was with a frenz.listenin to a song that juz came out frm her phone.she quickly turn her head to me bt i juz kept real quiet listenin to it.until the middle part of the song she said 'shld i skip this song ( elva - zui shou xi de mo sheng ren).cuz this song seem so familiar n it seem to b written for u....n....him.'when she said this sentence slowly n there's breaks in between it,bt when she's sayin this my tears fightin in my eyes.bt b4 that,they were alr fightin.eventually my tears roll dwn at the same time i turn my head to her n said 'its okays.juz let it play.i understand.i juz want to finis listenin to this song.'she totally understand how i feel n she hugged me in her warm embrace.n there,i cried in slient.'i juz miss him.i rly do.'i said to her.she padded me n said 'its okays.juz cried all u want.'cuz aft that song is all those song seem to b destined n fated written for me.n i continue to bit my lips hard not to let any sound out.'i rly repent for that day.i'm rly v repentant.i juz hope n wish that that day wil never come,i have never agree to go out with him if i know that we r gng to b in this situation nw.if the both of us were stranger for the bein of the yr 2oo7 isnt it gd?.if the both of us didnt get tog at all.all this shit werent happen ritex now,ritex in front of me isnt it.its all my fault.i'm nw repentance for the harsh msg.does he understand?.does he?.'she hugged me even tighter.i know she have nv seen me in this state b4.i dont rmb how long i've cried.bt i cried til i/m out of breath.then finally,i've stop.bt my mood wasnt back at all.not until nw.sometime when i'm walkin along.i juz think of him out of the sudden.whether is he dng gd.whether is he sick.whether does he gt a new gf.sometimes i even asked myself,'y am i thinkin so much abt him whereby he dont even give a fuck.he dont even wants to reply me.for what the heck i care abt him so much.y shld i care abt his life or death.'bt once i asked myself all this,i began to b scare.i dont know y.i juz wish to c him agn,even if its only for a sec.i've questioned myself many many times abt this qustion n i cn forever cant have an ans to it.'y is this happenin to me?.y muz our fate n destiny give us all the happiness bt it juz last for a few hrs or a day?.y muz our fate n destiny give us so many things n b so cruel to take all back?.nt leavin a single thing behind for us to hold on to?.' where's my ans?.whereareyou?.imisshim.rlydo.h.a.i.s. hopefully i'm leavin soon.
